If you aren’t in the mood for a negative post, the don’t read this.
I have had enough. Enough of being under valued. Enough of just being told that something that I spend hours doing is awful. I feel like people just let me do all the work, hours of work, and the don’t give me the full credit. I feel like so many people don’t want me to co owner FR anymore. I try not the write negative posts, but tonight I’ve had enough. Writing has always been my way of expressing things and this is my place to do just that. So many people think I am so strong. So strong that they don’t realise, don’t remember, that I have feelings. I hurt too. I try to be positive all the time and it works. But actually it only means that when you have had enough it feels even worst as I feel like I’m going again my own philosophy. And no, I don’t want to tell you wants up. The people who have hurt me and made me feel down are my friends and they didn’t mean to. I don’t want to talk about them behind their backs as if they are bad people, because they aren’t. They just didn’t think about my emotions when they said things and now I’m upset. But I’m one of those people who would rather put themselves in pain then others. I’m not trying to make myself sound amazing - I’m not - but that’s true. I couldn’t intentionally hurt those people. I lied. I want to just write a post about how unfair life is, how upset I am, just to relieve my own feelings. But then I just make more people feel upset and then I lose a friend and make myself feel upset again. So it honestly isn’t worth it. I feel like so many people think I’m not ‘tactful’. Online people read things differently and I type things with smiles to genuinely put a lighter mood to things. Apparently people think this is sarcasm. If you are one of those people mistaking that then that’s your own fault. I can’t predict how you will read something, I can only write it how I would read it and hope the right meaning comes across. All I want is for people to stop just saying comments, comments that many are true but they are not tactful. And they hurt when I have done an hours work and people just moan moan moan. If I didn’t enjoy it, I wouldn’t do it. That is why I don’t like to pay much attention to what people say about my blog. This is the place where I’m not judged. Maybe you are judging me just for writing this? Well actually I don’t want attention. I’d rather no one read this. But I want to put it up to the chance that someone MIGHT read it. My blog is where I can write whatever the hell I want (within reason) and people cannot stop me. My thoughts, my feelings, my stories, my comics, my ideas. Mine. I just want to be me.
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Li Silentland
Hello!Welcome to my little space on the large internet where I can share my thoughts, views and fanfics! I am you 'normal' teenaged girl, who loves writing, gaming and horses. I've played Star Stable online since 1st June 2014 and I am currently a level 20 player on Cupcake Valley where I hang about with Frosty Roses and my 18 pixel horses! Disclaimer: All images and anything else to do with this blog are taken in the game Star Stable Online produced by Star Stable Entertainment AB. I have nothing to do with Star Stable and own none of their graphics. But I can tell you it is a great game and you should play it!
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